Traveling . . . and Trusting

Walking toward the Light — morning walk at Camp Mokuleia

Good Evening, God!

Ah, my suitcase is packed . . . I leave early Thursday . . . off this time without my wonderful husband, Kit. He has things to do at home. I will miss him, but I know he will be absorbed in training for the Honolulu Marathon in December. And I will have time with our daughters!

My stuff — which just got unpacked yesterday — is somewhat strewn about.  Ah well. I may get everything all sorted out tomorrow — or maybe not. It’s only physical stuff. Meanwhile, the stuff inside me is more settled.

I was at our church’s annual Women’s Retreat this past weekend and I declared — after a fairly long period of wrestling with You, God — that I had settled in on trusting.  That was true. And I was thankful. But, oh foolish me, God! Because it was not more than a day or two before another Concern rose up. I’m trying to give it to You, God, but worries are so sticky!

Of course, God. Life is designed to show us we need You and we need one another! Even though we worry, our lives are relatively safe and secure compared to other times and other places. We have so much to be thankful for! Yet, in the dead of night, worries circle.

I am learning to stop and take each fear to You. I want Your help in Releasing them. But, I also realize that there are Real Concerns that I need to seriously consider and pray over — pray for gifts of wisdom and gifts of knowledge. And, not just to pray by myself, but to speak my fears out loud — sharing them in prayers with others.

Fears seem to lose a lot of their power when we face them and name them. Sharing does seem to be part of the healing process.